And if you want visuals @GrnGrnTmt found this YouTube video that’s pretty close to how YWY-XingEr’s bed scene played out lol: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hRBuxK-1Olk&list=P…
This summary comes from Chapter 180 of the novel, titled “Wedding Night”…there are sweet/funny moments and convos before and after this scene too but to include all the details would be too lengthy so I’ll save and tell yall later if you’re interested…:)
UPDATE: Before and After summaries of “Wedding Night” are posted here:
I went back to reread this chapter so I could be more accurate in detailing the dialogs for you because they’re really good!! 🙂
XingEr-YWY and their people are on a boat heading back to ChangAn from Liang State (after they reunited since YWY’s fake death they didn’t get together right away, they met up a few times and then separated due to personal and political reasons, after XingEr agreed to follow YWY to Qing Hai she said she wanted to go visit Xiao Ce to say goodbye to him since she won’t be seeing him anymore and it was during this visit that she got stuck there for months due to internal battles and tragedies that happened in Liang State…because of these troubles XingEr ended up bringing Xiao Ce’s infant son with her when she meets up with YWY…again lots of details here but I’ll save for later)…
After dinner, YWY found XingEr sitting at the top of the boat, he came to sit next to her and they talked about her past life (in the book XingEr was an agent in modern times, so YWY asked her to tell him about her previous world)…then YWY said to XingEr…
YWY: XingEr, I don’t care who you are…
XingEr (nods and smiles at YWY): I know, no matter what I’m still your XingEr.
YWY (surprised, stared down at her and lifted her chin up): Say it again.
XingEr: Say what?
YWY: Repeat what you just said earlier.
XingEr (took a deep breath and calmly said): I’m yours, but you also have to be mine. In my whole life time, I can sacrifice anything, except for 2 things, in whatever difficult situation I wouldn’t let go of these 2 things: 1st is honor and life’s beliefs, 2nd is marriage and my body. If you want my whole being, then you have to give me yours as well.
YWY (raised his eye-brow and jokingly asked): Everything??
XingEr (embarrassed and turned her head away): Menace, not serious at all!!
YWY (opened his arms and pulled XingEr into his chest, his warm breath enclosed XingEr, whispered): XingEr, I’m very happy, truly happy!!
XingEr (leaned against YWY’s chest, inside feeling a great sense of peace that she’s never felt before, turned around and embraced YWY, whispered back): let’s not part again.
YWY: You’re going with me to ChangAn, are you not afraid?
XingEr: Compared with before, I’m more scared of being apart from you. Every time we separate, some tragedy always finds us, just like this last time, I thought I would never see you again.
YWY: From now on, you don’t have to be afraid anymore.
They sat like that for a while…
After coming back to their rooms, YWY thought to himself that there are things in which you should act fast and swift, waiting will result in losses, XingEr was right, he needs to be hers, thus he must find an opportunity to make himself hers…giving each other everything belonging to one another…at midnight, he stood up from bed, walked around the room 2 rounds and decided: no need to look for an opportunity, tonight is the best time!!
YWY is someone who is meticulous, before he takes action he must plan out every detail…he changed into a crisp outfit and looked at the handsome face in the mirror, then sat down to drink a cup of tea while thinking about all the possible dialogs he could exchange with XingEr…alright, done and ready to execute the plan…he got up and walked toward the door, then suddenly the door swung open and in front of him was XingEr…YWY froze in his step for bit thinking to himself “what is this?! This is not a scenario I have imagined or planned for!!”
XingEr: It’s the middle of the night, where are you going?
YWY (proud that all those years trained as a spy have taught him how to react quickly, he came up with a fast excuse): I slept too much during the day so now I can’t sleep and want to go out for a midnight walk.
XingEr: It’s windy outside, it’s best to stay inside so you won’t get sick. I noticed you didn’t eat much during dinner, so I brought you some food.
YWY (stared down at the bowl of porridge XingEr brought): That’s it??
XingEr: Lucky enough to have food already, don’t be picky.
XingEr then lightly patted his head like a little kid and said “finish this and then go rest up, don’t wander around”. After this XingEr turned around and walked out of the room. Dumbfounded, YWY was stunned, and thought to himself “what is this?? All my plans are messed up…the bait came to my door and I let it walk away just like that?!”
YWY walked out of his room to follow XingEr to her room. When he got to her room he heard the sounds of a baby (Xiao Ce’s son) and the sounds of water splashing everywhere…he stopped at the doorway and watched XingEr attempting to give the baby a bath, her clothes were soaking wet…the baby got out of the tub and crawled toward the door…XingEr’s eyes followed the baby and saw YWY standing there…it was like she was mesmerized by his beauty…when the baby got to the door, XingEr’s maid came along and picked the baby up and brought him back to her room with her. YWY coolly walked into XingEr’s room as if it was his and closed the door. YWY went over to the bed to pick up a blanket and then came back to wrap it around XingEr…XingEr’s legs went numb, she’s not sure if it’s because she’s been sitting down on the floor too long or because she’s went weak at the sight of this beautiful man, but her legs have no feelings…
XingEr: What are you doing over here??
YWY: I miss somebody so I can’t sleep. That somebody is actually very lovable, but a bit stupid. She tends to get lost all the time. If I don’t keep an eye on her she will get lost again, gets hurt or even kidnapped. That’s why even though I’m very close to that person, yet I still worry when I don’t see her so I had to go look.
XingEr (her face turned red, looked up at YWY once and lowered her voice to respond): There’s no one that’s stupid like that.
YWY: Ohh yes there is, even more stupid than I just described.
YWY (the depth of his eyes twinkling in the light, suddenly let out a loud laugh): Not sure how that Xiao Ce could have borne a little master that would be welcomed like that, even I was pushed to the side.
XingEr was taken aback because she just realized that she’s been played, embarrassed, she held out a fist about to punch, but YWY grabbed a hold of her fist and held it in his hand. YWY’s hand is both big and warm, completely engulfed XingEr’s small hand, his hold was so strong that XingEr cannot move an inch.
YWY slowly moved closer to XingEr, the depth of his eyes seemed bottomless, submerging many mysteries. His low and husky voice covered over XingEr’s ear, “that’s your punishment for teasing me this morning.” As soon as he finished speaking, YWY moved closer to her lips. XingEr suddenly tensed up to the point that her entire body froze, although she had lived through 2 lifetimes, it’s not as if she doesn’t have experience in kissing (in her modern life she was 27 years old), however every time she faces YWY, XingEr becomes excited, flustered to the point she can’t find her hands or her feet.
Closing her eyes for a while but there’s still no movements, she slowly opened her eyes for a peek, only to discover that somebody has been intently looking at her. Seeing that she opened her eyes, YWY immediately moved closer, to the point that his warm breath spread all over her face, “were you waiting for me to kiss you?”
“Yu Wen Yue!” XingEr furiously pushed away, “You are too much!”
YWY suddenly embraced XingEr, using the fastest speed and surprising precision to pull away the blanket that’s wrapped around XingEr, then using one hand to hold onto her face, fiercely kissed her, the other hand firmly held onto XingEr’s body, as if wanting to press her entire body into his. His kiss is as cold as ice, yet her face is burning hot like fire, his breathing is fast and heavy, his hand squeezed her waist, their bodies pressed tightly against one another, so close that they can hear the heartbeats of the other person.
He kissed her one time, two times, three times…
YWY (opened his eyes and called her by her real name for the 1st time): Chu Qiao, be one with me? (Not sure how to translate this exactly, the literal translation is “to become one body”, so it basically means “will you marry me?”)
YWY (still staring at her, changed back to calling her by the name that is only his to call): XingEr…
XingEr (her mind in a dreamy state): Yes?
YWY: I love you.
Her head feels like it was hit by a bomb, XingEr can feel that her face is burning hot, temperature quickly spread all over her body, like she has fallen into a pit and then drowned. She innocently looks at him, her chest developed this feeling of excitement along with confusion that is indescribable, she held her hand to her chest, because if not she feels like it would explode.
YWY (calmly and peacefully says to her as if the 2 of them are discussing about someone else’s affairs): I’ve loved you for a long time. Did you know?
XingEr (nodded): Yes.
YWY (his eyes were so bright and fierce making her feel as if she could die due to not being able to breathe): What about you?
XingEr subconsciously blames this boat, why this room is so small, why it doesn’t have enough space, too hot that she cannot breathe.
“Say it.” That somebody dared to lift up her chin, asked again: “You too what?”
“Me too.” XingEr curled up her hand, gathered up all her strength, in one breath whispered: “I love you too.”
I love you too…
The sound is very small and light, but quickly pierced through the darkness that lights up the smile on YWY’s face, he lovingly lowered his head to plant a kiss on her forehead, asked: “Since when?”
XingEr (thinking back about all their times together…all the way back to their days at Green Hills Court): Not sure when…perhaps many times before…each time a little bit more…I can’t remember them all…
YWY (chuckled and pulled her in for a hug, suddenly smiled): Silly…actually I don’t know when either…
XingEr thought: “That’s right, love always comes unannounced, when you discover it, it has already been planted deep inside your heart.”
YWY bent down to kiss her, from her forehead, down to her lips, to her cheeks, her ear, her bony shoulder…
XingEr’s body more and more becomes softer, finally resting on the scorching hot body of YWY. His hand started to move, slowly igniting what’s left of the thoughts in her mind.
XingEr surprisingly let out an “Ahh” as her entirely body was suddenly lifted up and then put down on the bed.
Her clothes were half wet, wearing them is almost like not wearing anything at all.
He intently looked at her, frowning his forehead as if thinking about something, yet his eyes were still burning with fire.
Breathing heavily, he bent down close to her ear, then lightly caressed it with his lips, XingEr felt as if there was an electricity current running across her entire body. The sash on her skinny waist was pulled, her dress was opened to reveal her undergarments.
The smooth skin on her shoulder was revealed, felt cold. His long fingers lightly and slowly moved past her neck, trembled and then unfastened the tie on her bra. XingEr startled, reacted with instinct by pulling it back, then a laugh cackled on top of her head, “Are you embarrassed?”
XingEr wanted to hide, but there’s nothing she could do, shyly pointed to the candle, pitifully uttered: “Turn out the lights?”
YWY remained the same, laughed without sound, but she can see his lips clearly curved upward.
The atmosphere was silent, periodically there’s the sound of the birds flying down touching the water on the river.
YWY lifted XingEr’s waist, whispered in her ear, “Don’t be scared.”
His kisses again came down on her smooth skin making her flustered, her entire body went numb and then scorching hot. Piece by piece of her clothing was removed, revealing a feminine body underneath. Smooth, clear as pearl, like an exquisite porcelain vase, shining an endless youth. He kissed every inch of her body, their bodies pressed tightly against one another, burning like fire.
XingEr shyly buried her face in his chest, then suddenly saw a huge bumpy scar on his chest and shoulder, her body went cold making her shiver (this goes back to the time they fought in the bathroom scene where the bed broke and a piece of wood pierced through YWY’s shoulder, there were blood and flesh everywhere).
YWY could feel her shock, quickly raised his hand to cover her eyes, lowered his voice and said: “Don’t look.”
XingEr pulled his hand away, her hand shaking, she touched his scar then pressed her face against his chest, her tears covered the uneven flesh that is on YWY’s chest.
YWY sweetly pulled XingEr in for a hug, not saying anything and just watched her cry.
The day Xiao Ce died, she vowed to never shed another tear. However, in this minute, seeing the wound on his body, the wound he endured because of her, her heart ached to no end. She hugged him tightly, fearing as if loosened he would disappear from her. Like that time at the ice lake, when she let go he disappeared and she could no longer see him.
“Yu Wen Yue, I’m so sorry.” XingEr cried and said to him.
“Silly.” YWY kissed her hair, smiled and said: “I lost my beauty because of you, now you have to take responsibility for me.”
XingEr sobbed and argued back: “The wound is on your chest and shoulder, doesn’t count…doesn’t count as loss of beauty.”
YWY laughed, his deep black eyes shined like the beauty of the lotus flower, lightly kissed the face that’s covered in tears of XingEr, lowered his voice and whispered: “Doesn’t matter, you still have to take responsibility.”
His embrace was so strong that it caused her a bit of pain, but the feeling of pain has been dissipated by the happiness that is as big as the ocean.
Very nice, the 2 of them in the end can come to this day. Not too long ago, she thought her light was buried down at the bottom of the cold ice lake and could never be recovered.
They were intimate for a while, sweats all over their foreheads, there’s not a sound from anyone else, all over the 4 walls were the sounds of the waves. Time seemed to have stopped, wind seemed to have stopped, almost to mark the presence of the 2 of them.
There was a sharp pain, XingEr curved her body upward, uncontrollable, a stream of warm blood escaped between her legs.
YWY abruptly stopped, disbelief appeared on his face (this is when he realized she was still a virgin). He stared at her, almost wanting to pierce through the layers of fog to confirm something, too shocked to say anything. XingEr’s face became bright red, her lips swollen, being stared at like that she reached for the blanket to cover her chest.
YWY suddenly smiled, XingEr has never seen him smiled happily like this before, started with just a curve on the lips, then changed into a loud laugh, its sound becomes louder and louder, to the point that XingEr had to raise her hand to cover his mouth.
YWY buried his head into the crook of her neck, whispered: “XingEr, I’m very happy, I’m very happy.”
Later YWY thought to himself “I’ve always considered myself as better than Yan Xun, that only I could bring her happiness, however after tonight I’ve realized that the other person is more noble than I…after 10 years together and he didn’t do anything…I can’t believe Yu Wen Yue is like this…but what can I do…when it comes to XingEr I become selfish and I always want more…”
XingEr wrapped her thin arms around YWY’s waist, in the dimming light, she happily smiled, thinking, “so this must be our wedding night.”
XingEr also thought to herself: “Between the 2 of them there were countless obstacles, but after everything that has happened, after these many years, resentment and hatred for our countries, life and death, time and space, this life and past life, the 2 of them can step by step come to this day.”
***Photo credits from Google images.***
***Summary/translation from Vietnamese are my own work.***